51 and still bingeing

This has been happening for as long as I can remember . Dieting from the age of 8, teased repeatedly at school. Weight watchers at 13 fat and wearing my mothers dress. I can still see it. Binged through three pregnancy’s. Binged tonight before finally deciding I need help! Professional field, emergencies services, always helping someone stranger or family. Stressed all the time and want to just be happy, fit and a healthy weight! I really don’t know how to get myself out of this turmoil. This eating the cupboard dry every few weeks has to stop along with yo-yo dieting