Low self-esteem and social anxiety constantly followed me around from a young age. My views on myself were always negative, and my self worth was deeply effected by this. Unaware, I engaged in some risky behaviours, continuing this cycle into high school. Year 10 came around, which was possibly one of the worst years of my life. At 15, I had an identity crisis. I cut my hair short, got my ears and nose pierced, and unfortunately, engaged in dieting and exercise.
My life had changed for the worse. Years of wanting to be ‘perfect’ finally crashed down onto me. I felt so trapped within myself; I was never happy, and dreamed of being mentally free. So many memories that could have been amazing were ruined because of anorexia, and I will never get them back. Fortunately, I’m receiving treatment now. It will not be easy, nor will it be a fast recovery, but my mental clarity has improved immensely.
For the first time in years, I have truly felt happy with my life. I have plans to go to Uni, to travel, to actually grow old. I know I still have a long journey ahead of me, but I am ready, and I cannot wait to completely break free.