Messy Middle – Don’t give up

I got diagnosed with Binge eating disorder in 2025, although I had had a hunch for a few years before. It was devastating, who am I now, what is my worth and will I ever heal. I started seeing a dietician, and trying to follow through on the food diary and regular meals, but still binged and ate huge amounts of anything I could get my hands on, I hated this.

Right now, I am in the messy middle, I’ve added weight and relapsed. I am literally trying to seek out actual psychological help but there are wait lines and it is crazy expensive. I write for anyone else needing to know that they are not alone, that it is hard but maybe it will get easier. It is hard now but my future self will thank me, it will all be worth it. I cry a lot, I regret what I have done but I keep trying to help myself. I now know its not about working harder, but rather about seeking out supports to help me. Broken crayons still colour and healing isn’t linear, and maybe I will be okay, maybe you will too. Don’t give up, just keep showing up for yourself.