Still fighting

I am 19 years old, I have been struggling with eating disorders since I was 11.

I was diagnosed with Binge Eating Disorder (BED) when I was 13. I always knew I liked food, food was how I dealt with any emotions. If I was angry, I’d eat , if I was sad, I’d eat… any emotion I felt led to me binging.

However when I turned 15 my mindset changed, I was then (unofficially) diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa, I went from binging.. to barely eating. I was losing weight, and treating my body unfairly. I was then diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression, I was really being tested. 2 years later (when I was 17) my BED returned, as if a switch was flipped I was back to covering up my emotions with food binging whenever I had the opportunity.

I am now 19 years old, I would like to say that I have recovered… but that would be a lie. The little switch in my head has been flipped again and I am now back to not eating. Eating disorders are hard, they test you.. they push you in the worst and also the best ways. I am not done fighting, I will continue to try to beat my eating disorders, I’m not a quitter…I will not let the eating disorders win.